Cinderella in a party dress

i think i have a curse but at least it benefits others.

and now some emo-tastic fragments. you’ve been warned…  

sometimes i am painfully, refreshingly reminded of exactly what i am looking for. and though i am so far from attaining it, and i don’t know the way, those little moments of utter sadness and hopelessness remind me that there is more i am to be searching for. there is more than what i am leaving behind. 

or at least, i hope so. 

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loneliness. it’s not something i’m used to. sometimes i would look at the things my friends do out of sheer loneliness … and just wonder, why? 

and then that same loneliness comes seeping into my own life. this oppressive sadness and lethargy. this realization that, at the end of the night, no one actually cares. it’s easy to see why people do some of the things they do. 

i wonder if it will get worse after graduation. or better maybe? 

/end emo rant.